Friday, April 17, 2009

the beginning of the end

Today is my first day not going to the methadone clinic. I feel like hell and never sleep, but at least it can finally fucking end. Wish me luck.

To entertain you now that I can post pics, here are some of Jasmyne eating her solid food for the first time which were taken a few weeks back. I started her on solids late because I wanted to, before anyone asks, and she now eats rice, peas, and carrots. Next: sweet potatoes.



10 comments:

CindyB1 said...

I love the pictures of Jaz and you. Good to see you both looking so happy and healthy!

Pussyface said...

You know you can do this methadone thing. Look at everything else you've done. You've got this. That's a beautiful baby you're raising and any time it gets tough just look at her and remember why you're doing it. The age she's at is a fun age and it doesn't last long so enjoy it. It's a lot of work but it's amazing watching them grow. - Raisin

L said...

Good luck with the methadone. I know that it has to be hard. Once I get back on the suboxone for like a year straight I want to ween myself off. I don't want to be on it forever. I just want a normal life! I wish I never ever picked up a drug. But it's too late now. Jazzy sure has changed you. I can tell from reading your old entries up until now. It's amazing. She is truly your blessing!

Anonymous said...

She looks like my neice Rose
Very cute

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JAMIE said...

IVE BEEN AWAY AND JUST CAUGHT UP ON YOUR BLOG ! YOU AND THE BABY LOOK GREAT ! I HAVE A SMALL COMPLAINT THOUGH (SORRY) , WHEN I FIRED UP YOUR SITE MY BOOS WAS ROUNDING THE CORNER JUST IN TIME TO HERE " RATHER GET SOME HEAD " LOL ...KEEP STRONG LIL SOUL SISTA ..MAKEN US PROUD

Anonymous said...

GOOD FOR YOU!!!! Keep up all your great progress! I'm from Canada and always read your blog but never comment. I've been following your blog for - well forever and I can't believe how far you've come. You truly are an inspiration. Love the mommy you've become :)

Naomi C. said...

Hey Shelley, It is now 00:00GMT which means it is officially my twin nieces 7th birthday! Last year, on the 17th I was in hospital having been clean off my methadone for ages, because I was silly enough to do a hit. I was so wrapped up in myself I didn't realise that 2 days later it was my my worlds (aka nieces) birthday. I detoxed off methadone for a ages, and they were just my twin nieces. I look at your photos of you and Jaz and I know you can do this. Whenever I read old comments from people about you I feel furious. I love to look at photos of you now, with your baby, I know that you are going to make her proud. I know loads of people that used all throughout their pregnancies, I know people who gave birth, left their kids with their grandparents and went right back to what they were doing before. I got clean for nothing for a while and it was hard so I know you can do it for Jaz. I know I don't know you personally but I fully believe this is going to be a success story. I am starting to look at my twin nieces whose party I am going tomorrow, and I know I want to be the ultimate example, if an auntie can feel that I know a Mum is going to feel that a million times more. Coming off methadone I felt like shit. I wanted to die at times but I didnt have the motivation you had; a beautiful daughter. Can't wait to hear about how you are going next. Have a good time at disney. I know you can do this. People may slag you off but hell, who doesn't commit wrongun's from time to time. The photos of you and jazs nanna say it all; you can do this.

You know shelley you are going to prove them all wrong, dontcha? My prayers are with you during this tough time. Physically it is going to kill but just think of how great it is going to be when you can take jaz wherever you want, not having to rely on the liquid handcuffs. You are seriously, my idol and i am not asskissing!

Anonymous said...

My dear Michelle:
Years ago I told you I have faith in God and I have faith in you. I still do and I always will. With God's help you can PERMANENTLY get rid of the 'liquid handcuffs.' It must feel great to finally be FREE! I love you a lot, Jesus loves you, and I'm proud for you--I think He must be also. I love our Jasmyne a lot. What a great baby you've helped bring into the world! She's my second favorite baby girl of all time!
te quiero mucho,
Mama

Cocaine Princess said...

Oh my goodness she's so cute!