Thursday, April 24, 2008

[before] [after]







These pics were taken in the same park, about 8-10 months apart. The first one, in the middle of a B-A-D heroin binge (and probably right after a shot). The second one, last weekend after about 3 consecutive dope-free months. Well, approximately 3 months- I stopped counting days after the first month since that's for the 12-steppin' NAzis. Anyways... see the difference?

To reply to one of the comments (too lazy to reply to all of 'em): Yes, the cops are disgusted with me. You know the cool part though? It doesn't keep me up nights, seeing that I don't think too much of them either. I'm not a cop-hater, I've just run across some real pieces of shit hiding behind a badge and a Tazer. Hooker or not, criminal or not, I'm still a goddamn American and deserve to be treated like one (regardless of what my internet "enemies" say).

63 comments:

Anonymous said...

1st to comment on two updates in a row....you are looking much healthier since youve been clean...even tho u dont know me I am so proud of you and have been a long long time reader (this is only my second comment) Keep up the good work for you and your baby and keep updating us, your blog is the best one on the 'net! take it easy much love coming from gangsta island (Gary Indiana....look it up on wikipedia)

Anonymous said...

In the first picture, are the dark spots on your arms track marks?

I don't really know what they look like, but your arms don't look that bad. You had blogged about horrific track marks.

Libby

Anonymous said...

Ew, cameltoe. Gross.

Anonymous said...

LIBBY , THE FIRST THING I SAW IN HER FIRST PIC IS THE TRACK MARK . SHE DOES LOOK MUCH BETTER THOUGH . GLAD FOR HER . JAMIE

Anonymous said...

That's a nice difference. I bet you feel better and like how much better you are starting to look.

Any word on the father of your baby?

Do you even know?

Anyhow...keep up the good work.

Anonymous said...

You are such a young girl...your life is so sad.

Anonymous said...

Libby,

Alot of people shoot in their feet to reduce tracks when they get bad. Not to mention after a few years it gets hard to find the easy veins in your arm.

But yes noob, those are tracks.

Mark in Fl said...

You are a pretty girl.... Its really good to hear you have not given up on your life. not many girls make it back from the places you have been.

Keep it up. How about some stories from the hell high school you went to... I have haeard so many horrer stories about that place and the guy who ran it.

Anonymous said...

Hooker or not, criminal or not, I'm still a goddamn American and deserve to be treated like one

You deserve to be treated just like you treat others, which is like shit. I don't consider someone who has so little regard for an innocent life inside them to brag about smoking pot, cigarettes, and taking percs (and if anyone believes you haven't done heroin they're idiots)as human. Your baby would be better off dead than to have you as a mother.

Anonymous said...

So you believe she a hooker and a drug addict who does 3 G's a day...All that you believe when she writes it.

But not when she writes she has not done something.

Pick a side dumb ass, believe all you read or take it all with a grain of salt.

Although I do think you are that type of dumb-ass off line as well.

Paula said...

Michelle, you are a very pretty girl. This is my first time posting a comment, but I would like to tell you that I am quite intrigued and inspired by your blog. I'm considering pursuing a master's degree in psychology with a focus on addictions. Although i am not an addict, my brother was a cocaine addict and unfortunately succumbed to his addiction by committing suicide. He was a beautiful soul and only 21yrs old at the time and although it has been 14 years I think about him all the time! I hope that you have the strength within you to stay clean for yourself and the health of your unborn baby. You're such a beautiful writer, I know your focus right now is on staying sober, but have you considered college and a professional career in writing?

Anonymous said...

she is very young and very lost. intelligent but without education, talented in writing without much reading. She is having a baby as an addict, at 20 something for god's sake, without having a life of her own, she is giving birth to another life. This is your beloved and proud America in front of your very own eyes and you don't even realize, a self-portrait of the mediocre, the white trash, the young, stupid mother without a clue of life outside of that little part of Southern Florida, not even a dot on the entire globe. How do you like it?

Anonymous said...

BTW ...I GUESS YOUR A LEFTY ...JAMIE

Anonymous said...

I don't get it- you've been bragging for years about how much you love being a junkie and a whore and that having sex with strangers for money is fun. You said you'd never do any other job, but now you say you're trying to find a better way. So which is it? Do you love being a whore or do you now admit that you are scum? PS I always knew you were trailer trash, but I just found out that you actually live in a trailer too. How fitting!

taxitalk said...

I like the pregnant you, pic 2, sucks you got put in the slammer, we can see yourre showing

CindyB1 said...

Why do you say she lives in a trailer, Anon, not that it matters?
"Greg is painting my folks' house- its a weeklong job." I don't think you paint mobile homes. I think you are just mean. A decent person is encouraging and positive. You are so nasty and ugly in the way you write. Who are you so mad at?

Anonymous said...

So your parents are paying your pimp to paint their house! No wonder you turned out like you did.

Anonymous said...

Stupidity runs in the family!!!

Anonymous said...

i just noticed...why'd you take micheal's picture down?

Anonymous said...

god i feel so sorry for you

and for your unborn child

this is such a sad reality; a child born to a junkie prostitute that will surely have developmental issues and psychological problems...if not born mentally retarded, which there is a high probability of happening

i really hope your child makes it through without being seriously harmed/retarded/diseased and gets adopted by a loving family that can give them the care and special attention they will probably need

Anonymous said...

god i feel so sorry for you

and for your unborn child

this is such a sad reality; a child born to a junkie prostitute that will surely have developmental issues and psychological problems...if not born mentally retarded, which there is a high probability of happening

i really hope your child makes it through without being seriously harmed/retarded/diseased and gets adopted by a loving family that can give them the care and special attention they will probably need

Anonymous said...

how the hell did you get preg? who the hell would knowingly have stuck their dick in that cavernous snatch of yours...talk about risk! unprotected sex with a IV drug user and prostitute...

Anonymous said...

FYI ..THE OPI FORUM IS OPEN AGAIN.JAMIE

Anonymous said...

Hey Cindyb1,

Why are you no updating your blog?
Are you ok?

Anonymous said...

I heard you used heroin again, liar. Actually it doesn't matter what you do cause this baby has no chance with a junkie whore for a mother. There's no way in hell you are going to make it. Your attitude sucks and you're selfish.

Anonymous said...

i've found it's always easy to find someone
who is willing to sell me drugs when i have the $$$
hell, i can't even walk through my neighborhood
without hearing:
"you straight?"
"you need anything"
"yo girl i got that [whatever they got]"

what's hard about finding drugs???

Yeah, when you're a junkie whore living in the ghetto of course it's easy to buy drugs

PS You're causing damage to your baby every time you smoke pot, but obviously you don't care. I'm glad you're at least providing evidence that is all being saved for social services. You will not keep that kid.

D said...

"cause i smoke mad weed
and consider myself clean"

You're so fucking ignorant it's pathetic. And since you have now said on opio that you plan to resume being a junkie and crackhead when you are not prgneant (though you're also talking about calling your dope guy tonight) what do you plan to do with the baby???

Radiator said...

Jesus, shelley... this shit just makes me so mad... I am getting some on my end but not like *this*... keep your head up girl... I am pullin for ya...

D (HLITL)

Desaree' aka eerased said...

Hey girl, Big super big props to you for handling what these fuck wads have to say to you!

Sounds like your doing good otherwise. Ignore the posts putting down you being a mom. All you can do is take it day by day and looks like you are doing the "right thing" now so props to ya!!
Hugz
Des

ndoftaworld said...

As I stated on op, no matter how much these pussies try to put you down, try to take comfort in how miserable and low their life is. Because their mommy didn't love them and treat them right they think everyone else will be horrible parents. Stay strong.

Anonymous said...

You said, "No, I don't "admit that I'm scum" because I know I'm not. I'm doing my best, even if my best is equal to someone elses worst. It's okay, things are getting better. I enjoy tricking- it's a high all by itself. When I get out of a car with cash in my hand... hard to explain. I don't need YOU to bum me a cigarette, I don't need HIM to front me anything, I don't need HER to lend me a couple bucks, I don't need ANYONE to buy me food. Who got Shelley? Shelley got Shelley!"

Can't Shelley get Shelley without turning tricks? You could get a real job like most people and have money to buy food, cigarettes, etc...

Anonymous said...

heroin whore. your baby is gonna be a dumbshit just like you.

i guarantee you that the father is a loser too. just like your dumb ass.

Anonymous said...

it's not a coincidence people are talking shit about you. they have so much to go on. i can see your future now. you're going to be staring down the barrel of poverty due to your lack of intelligence. you cant even point to motherhood on a map. why dont you just be a hooker and get it over with.
doing drugs with a baby in your womb? dumb bitch.

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