Friday, August 15, 2008

dead guys on the brain


It is 4am, and I've been awake for an hour. I had a scary dream and it woke me up, and of course I had to go to the bathroom (I think my bladder is the size of a quarter by now) and then I started thinking of tons of other scary things, mostly from movies and books. Like people getting cut in half at the beginning of Ghost Ship, or the dead guy driving the car in Christine ("that wasn't Arnie driving that car! It was a dead man!"), or the bathtub lady from The Shining, or the kid's reflection staying where it is while the kid ran away on the commercial for Mirrors. That last one is pretty pathetic- I haven't even seen that fucking movie yet and already it's giving me nightmares. I was planning on forcing Greggie to watch it with me tonight at the drive-in, maybe I shouldn't, if the stupid ad scares me. Then again, everything is scary at 3am. There are much scarier things than these ghosts and zombies from fiction stories. For example, my court date on August 27th.

Movies movies movies, that's been my life lately. Greg has been working ALLLLL week- yes, I am very happy that he's working, but I do get bored and lonely. So I watch movies, which are excellent time killers. I got a prescription (or is it subscription? I forget the difference between those words) for Blockbuster Online, and so far have recieved Dreamcatcher and 10,000 BC (the hero is sooooo good-looking, great fuckin flick) and exchanged them both in-store for Matilda (a kiddie movie, I know) and The Ruins. That one, really sucked, I didn't even finish watching it. Something about a haunted vine that gets into people's bodies, or something like that. The vine looks like a hybrid of marijuana and poison ivy and it moves around and people are dying. I went back into my room after dinner last night to watch the rest of it and then thought to myself, "do I really care what happens to this stupid vine, or these stupid people?" The answer, of course, was hells no. Mirrors, that's the next one I want to see. It looks so goddamn terrifying! Actually forget Mirrors- you know what I really want to watch? Tropic of Thunder, with Robert Downey Jr playing a black guy. Hah at first instead of typing "black guy" I typed "dead guy", guess I have dead guys on the brain. Maybe it would help if I could turn on some lights, but my brother's little friends are sleeping all over the house and I'm sick of being an asshole to these kids. Yeah they annoy the fuckingniggashit outta me, but oh well. Lucas will be going back to college in just a couple weeks, and then I won't have to deal with the little faggots anymore.

You think I'd be happy about that, but I'm so not. I won't miss the melvins, that's fer damn sure. But I've kinda come to rely on Lucas being here, I love having my favorite person in the world so close by, and he's going alllll the way to Gainesville and I won't get to see him again until probably Thanksgiving... I'm gonna cry when he leaves, seriously I am. I already cry about everything else these past few months, what's one more sobfest? One good thing- I get to ride up with him and our mama to Gainesville, to say goodbye. After he goes to class that Monday, me and mama are going tubing down some central Florida river. I'm excited about that trip, hell it'll do me good to get out of the house.

If you think I'm responding to 30 comments, y'all are crazy. I wrote a story about a sea monster, I'm trying to see if I can get paid off it and if not, I shall post it here.

11 comments:

ICP said...

Shelly for President!!!

who runs the souf? said...

Hey my lovely lady u and u r man gonna b around saturday still, cuz im gonna b in town whethr that guy keeps his plans or not, charleys crab sounds cool? I will treat u n greg too!!

ELLIOTT

Polgara said...

You sound like you're a Stephen King fan like me, i loved Christine.
Hope you and baby well
Pol x

Anonymous said...

Turn your volume on and watch this hilarious video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BO7tMsAviUI

L

Tuesday said...

Hi hi. I am a member of opiophile and I have been reading your blog for a few days. I have read past entries and figured out what u are all about. We have a lot in common. I am a 25 yr old heroin addict from st louis, mo currently working as a nurse, but in my past I made a living just as you do today. I relate to you on so many levels, and I just want to give you my support. I appreciate your honesty! I also have a journal that I have maintained for many years. Hope to keep up with you, talk to u soon. -Tuesday

ihatethosewhodance! said...

Why would anyone watch scary movies when they know for a fact that they get night mares from them? That's got to be about the stupidest thing I've ever heard But of course, you can't expect too much from someone like you.

ihatethosewhpdance! said...

On second thought I kinda do the same thing as you . The thought of sucking another mans cock scared the crap out of me , yet I do it again and again , weird , right ?!

Tuesday said...

Hey. I just wanted to tell you something for your security. I followed the link to that pbso site that you said you used to check someone who was locked up. I have a dear friend who lives in the area, and I looked her up. Her name is Michellee, with two ee's. (I know, stupid name, but her mom was a total crackhead and always out of it.) I typed that in as my friend has gotten married, and we lost touch after my last big relapse. Anyway, I searched by first name/partial and did a search for a few years back. Well, you came up along with a few others. I knew it was you because of your photo. It displayed your last name and personal info. I wanted to tell you this, because I have seen you say "Michelle Angelina ******" before, so I assumed you wanted to have your name remain private. Maybe try to be a little more careful, if this bothers you that is, because I would hate for people to find out too much info and some harm to be done to you. I know that for me, anonyminity is one of the greatest advantages of internet journaling and is vital to my best interests. Just looking out for you. Maybe you should delete this after you read it, so that other people dont do this to find you. Im sorry I had to type all of this here, but I did not know where else to contact you at. Your new friend, Tuesday.

Melody said...

Hope you are feelin' good, you look all glow-y in your pics so that is a great indicator. I will call next week....maybe, if I don't still feel like a total dopesick asshole and if I can catch you at home. Love ya babe, Melody

Cocaine Princess said...

It's great how you and Lucas are so close. Everyone needs that one person they can hang with, someone they can rely on and talk to without being judged or looked down upon.

XOXOXOXO,
Cocaine Princess

Anonymous said...

I got a prescription (or is it subscription? I forget the difference between those words) for Blockbuster Online,

STUPID, STUPID, STUPID