Friday, April 17, 2009

the beginning of the end

Today is my first day not going to the methadone clinic. I feel like hell and never sleep, but at least it can finally fucking end. Wish me luck.

To entertain you now that I can post pics, here are some of Jasmyne eating her solid food for the first time which were taken a few weeks back. I started her on solids late because I wanted to, before anyone asks, and she now eats rice, peas, and carrots. Next: sweet potatoes.



Thursday, April 16, 2009

west palm beach tea party pictures

Jasmyne only dropped that flag once the whole time we were there




local news coverage...
that entire parking garage was filled with people too

the pirate ship, as in "stop the federal pirates"

that sign was my absolute favorite,
except for one that I didn't get a pic of that said,
"The South will rise again!"
"no credible opposition"

in case you can't read the lower sign, it says,
"blaming guns for crimes is like blaming keyboards for misspelled words"

and of course, the cutest "sign" of all- Jazzie


Wednesday, April 15, 2009

it's april 15, do you know where your taxes are going?

I would have been posting pics but there's something wrong with my picture folder. Every time I open it, everything shuts down. And I would just move the pics to another folder, but I can't open the fucking thing. Lame. Just wanted to say that later today I'll be at the local Tax Day Tea Party protest in downtown West Palm Beach today. I got a onesie for Jaz that says "I'm paying for your bailout." Her very first anti-government protest! So I will figure out how to post pics, and will do so tonight or tommorrow because I want those pics on my blog dammit!

Here is the main website for the tea parties:
http://taxdayteaparty.com/

Here is a retardedly conservative viewpoint on the tea parties:
http://michellemalkin.com/2009/02/21/tea-party-usa-the-movement-grows/

Here is a retardedly liberal viewpoint on the tea parties:
http://www.nytimes.com/2009/04/13/opinion/13krugman.html?_r=2

Down with big government! Down with small government! Freedom!!!!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

a reason to celebrate...

Jasmyne isn't allergic to dairy! wOOt!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

OBAMA'S ACCOMPLISHMENTS SO FAR...

Completely stolen word for word from someone on a forum I frequent, and I will give him credit if he tells me I should. Until then, just know that this is nothing but copy-paste.

1. Executive order forcing tax payers to fund abortions overseas.

2. Executive order to close Gitmo within a year (he's still trying to figure out what to do with the prisoners there, apparently having given it little thought before making his campaign promises).

3. Executive order effectively ending serious interrogations of illegal enemy terrorists by limiting questioning to the techniques spelled out in the Army Field Manual, pending advice from an advisory task force created by the President.

4. Suspended the military commission process, and dropped charges against Abd al-Rahim al-Nashiri, the alleged mastermind of the USS Cole bombing and other terrorist attacks, to the outrage and consternation of the victims' families, though new charges could still theoretically be filed.5. Signed so called "Fair Pay Act" into law, violating his "transparency" promise to publicly post legislation for people to observe for five days before signing. The act is a boon to trial lawyers as it eliminates the statute of limitations for filing law suits alleging discrimination despite the current economic downturn, and it would force employers to pay completely different types of jobs equally, with government regulators determining which unrelated jobs (like janitorial and secretarial work) are "equivalent".Supporters of the bill completely ignore studies by economists like June O'Neill (who served in the Clinton administration) that virtually all but a tiny percentage of the pay disparity between men and women can be accounted for by legitimate factors like experience and qualifications.

6. Signed a dramatic expansion in SCHIP, violating his "transparency" promise to publicly post legislation for people to observe for five days before signing.The expansion will mainly fund government health insurance for children (and some adults) who already have private health insurance, raising a steep cigarette tax to ostensibly pay for it, while ignoring evidence that such programs serve to drive up general health care costs for everyone.

7. Alienated tens of millions of Americans by frivolously attacking Rush Limbaugh, the biggest conservative icon in the country.

8. Nominated a Treasury Secretary who failed to pay tens of thousands of dollars in taxes and employed an illegal alien.

9. Nominated a Commerce Secretary who was forced to withdraw in the midst of a corruption scandal.

10. Nominated a Health and Human Services Secretary who withdrew after it was discovered that he had failed to pay over a hundred thousand dollars in taxes.

11. Nominated a Chief Performance Officer who withdrew after it was discovered that she had failed to pay a significant amount of taxes.

12. Nominated an Attorney General who was involved in the Clinton pardon scandals and who worked to get over a dozen terrorists released from prison.

13. Selected a Chief of Staff (Rahm Emanuel) from Chicago with a reputation for ruthlessness who is widely disliked across the political spectrum.

14. Nominated a long time politician with no national security experience to head the CIA. Currently concerns are being raised over funding he received from various banks and other institutions.

15. Nominated for Deputy Attorney General a man who has argued that American courts should defer to the opinions of foreign bodies, even when the US isn't a party to a pertinent treaty that would make such rulings legally relevant.

16. Despite pledging that lobbyists "won't find a job in my White House," has given high power jobs to at least a dozen lobbyists so far.

17. Has transferred at least partial oversight of the census from the Commerce Department to "senior White House management" (see Rahm Emanuel), effectively politicizing the process that determines Congressional apportionment and influences government funding.

18. Under the guise of immediate "stimulus", has aggressively pushed for the passage of an almost trillion dollar spending package that largely consists of ad hoc pork elements, infrastructure projects that will play out only over a long period of time, and welfare style transfer payments erroneously labeled "tax cuts".

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

twenty things...

Stole this from another blog- http://oneistooomany.blogspot.com/ Hope ya don't mind since I gave ya credit and all...

1) List 20 things that you want to say to people, but never will.
2) Don't say who they are.
3) Never discuss it again.
4) Don't answer people who question who these thoughts are to or about.
5) Take a guess if you want, ha.

  1. He's not yours anymore, so this silly high-school shit needs to end, how old are you anyways?
  2. Please keep your fun in check, you don't know how worried I get about you now and I can't say anything because I'll sound like your mama, but I love you.
  3. I'm sorry I considered killing you, I didn't know what else to do.
  4. I'm the one who called the cops on you, and I'd do it again in a second you murdering fuck.
  5. I know, you're better than me, everything I like sucks, everything you like is pure and perfect. Now wouldja shut up about it?
  6. Weed isn't the only thing in the world, sure it's awesome, but it's just an enhancer not a lifestyle in itself, OKAY?????
  7. Sometimes I don't like hanging out with you because I know we won't do anything besides chill.
  8. There aren't any microphones in the stroller and if you so much as touch her I will rip your nuts off and shove them down your throat.
  9. You're ugly, mean, and everyone hates you- but it's not my fault.
  10. What, do you have fag-PMS all day every day? Just because someone said something sarcastic doesn't mean they was talking to you, grow some thicker skin and quit bitching you fucking know-it-all queen.
  11. I wanted to do it because I knew you'd leave and I couldn't stand looking at your sad annoying fucking face for one more day.
  12. I took the time we spent together for granted, and now you're gone and I still miss you all the time, I love you my friend.
  13. I don't know if I can believe you because I know you're capable of anything and I want you to stay the fuck away from me until this whole mess is over.
  14. I didn't kill him! I wasn't even home! When oh WHEN are you gonna stop calling me and making threats!
  15. Yeah I hate niggers, and I hate you most of all, I hope you die of the plague and take all your buddies with you before you ruin everything.
  16. I don't care if you switched ROAs or how many little keytags you've accumulated, you're still a fucking junkie and I'm not.
  17. She's gonna leave you soon as the baby is born, I hope you're prepared to be a single father.
  18. You are, but I don't expect you to do anything about it.
  19. I gave you his needle on purpose knowing what he had, and I'm not sorry.
  20. In another life, me and you would have gotten married, bought a house, and had 2.5 children together, and you know this, but you *don't* know how close I came to falling in love with you dirt and all.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

the illusion that you're doing something fun

I've been a drug addict (by choice!) for years, but it wasn't just about drugs. It's more about excitement and doing something fun. I'd want to go out and have some crazy adventures, in fact that's why this blog began- to chronicle all the crazy shit that went down in my life on a near-daily basis. And in my using days, even when nothing interesting happened, I felt like something had. Because sitting in a motel room all night smoking crack and not going near the door gives you the illusion that you're doing something fun. Either that or it makes you not give a shit, possibly even a combination of the two. But since it would NOT be advantageous to me or the baby for me to start doing drugs again, (Greg- that's how you use that word properly) I need to find something to do along with a babysitter while I do it.

I love my kid, there's no question about that. She's funny, she's cute, she's usually happy, she's smart, she does a lot of silly things, she's the best kind of baby and I would probably never be truly happy again if I lost her. But she is a 6-month-old baby, and 6-month-old babies are boring. Here is my day: go to the methadone clinic, go to [the playground/Okeeheelee Park's nature trail/the mall/baby story hour/the grocery store], feed the baby, play with the baby, sit around the house with the baby, go to the playground/grocery store again, think up a soy-free dairy-free nut-free seafood-free egg-free dinner that will taste good, feed baby, put baby to bed, go online. Occasionally I go to Greggie's house and do the same things over there. I am very happy, but as an excitement junkie I am fucking bored as shit.

Last weekend I left Jazzie at Greg's house and went out with my parents to see Monsters Vs Aliens: The IMAX 3-D Experience. Great movie, not exciting. I need something to do, but nothing that could hurt the baby or get her taken away from me. My poor brother is bored too, I told him that if it was just me we would have already left on an exciting road trip. He said we should do it and bring Jaz, but then it would be boring.

Hell, I'm going to Disneyworld at the beginning of next month, to celebrate my freedom from the liquid handcuffs (methadone). I am at 5mg a day and feeling like total shit! But this bitch is strong, and I ain't gonna fuck it up. Y'all can hold me to that. If only I could find something fun to do...